"You've changed". "You're not as fun as you used to be". "Since you started hanging out with that person you're so different." All things that I've had said to me in the past and all things that have been said with negative implications.

I am a completely different person to the person I was a year ago. Just as I'm a completely different person to who I was three years ago, four years ago and ten years ago. I'm a very adaptable person and I am massively influenced by my experiences, my surroundings and the people that I surround myself with. I absorb other people's mannerisms and moods. I indulge myself in my friend's interests and often take them on as my own. I don't think any of this is a bad thing. 

As each of us goes through life, we magnetise towards people who are similar to us and who will bring out a better and new side of ourselves. There hasn't been a year of my memorable life where I've not discovered a new aspect of my personality, a new love or interest, thanks to the people around me, the places I go and the things I experience. And that's an amazing thing.

Around a year ago I was having a complete personality crisis. I didn't know who I was. I didn't know why I was feeling so many changes in myself. Drifting away from people who I'd been close to for such a long time and magnetising towards new people and new experiences. I was losing interest in things that I had previously loved and I didn't know what was happening to me. I really wish at that point, somebody had grabbed me, shook me by the shoulders and told me that IT'S OKAY. It's okay to go through changes and it's okay to lose touch with people who don't fit into your idea of happiness anymore. It doesn't mean the times you spent together and the things you did in that period of your life are meaningless. It just means you've moved past them. You've changed.

The way I like to look at things now as that life would be too boring if you just stayed still. You have to shed your skin a few times to really discover new sides of yourself that you'd never previously known were there. And in reality, it's never going to stop. I'll still be discovering new hidden interests and habits until the day I die. I like that thought. It makes everything feel a little more exciting. Life is about allowing yourself to experience everything that you possibly can, and change is necessary in order to do this. Yes, maybe you don't recognise the person you were last year. But that's okay. You're still the same person. Just a more experienced one. You've changed, and that's bloody brilliant.

1 comment :

  1. I love this. Change is good, and anyone who resents you for your growth and progress is the one that needs to be cut off. I went through this stage in the first year of uni... x

    Erin | beingerin.com