11 October 2016

"You've changed". "You're not as fun as you used to be". "Since you started hanging out with that person you're so different." All things that I've had said to me in the past and all things that have been said with negative implications.

I am a completely different person to the person I was a year ago. Just as I'm a completely different person to who I was three years ago, four years ago and ten years ago. I'm a very adaptable person and I am massively influenced by my experiences, my surroundings and the people that I surround myself with. I absorb other people's mannerisms and moods. I indulge myself in my friend's interests and often take them on as my own. I don't think any of this is a bad thing. 


7 October 2016

The only perception I've ever really had of Chelsea is that it's a pretty posh area which is impossible to walk around without stumbling across Spencer Matthews or Lucy Watson hanging around on a street corner waiting for an awkward encounter with an ex. This weekend, my friend Nic and I decided we'd pay Chelsea a visit and make use of some of it's gorgeous backdrops for a few snaps. Every building in Chelsea is unimaginably beautiful. I've updated my ultimate life goals list and living in a bright green townhouse with a yellow door just off of Kings Road is now right at the top.


1 October 2016

I literally cannot believe it's October already. I'm pretty sure I'm going to end up starting every monthly round-up with a line similar to that... but seriously. Where the heck has this year gone? September, as September's usually are, was cold and cloudy. Both inside of my head and outside of it. It's been a tough one, but I'm ready for the new start which I know October will bring. Last month's round-up has already been one that I've loved looking back on. So, here we go again: presenting, September.


20 September 2016

Dear Melissa,

How are you feeling today?

You don't have to answer that. People always ask me that question and it's never any easier to answer.

They're always looking for a simple response. A quick "I'm wonderful" before they float on by. I'm sure you can agree with me, it's often so much more complicated than wonderful.

Sometimes the inside of my head feels like the base of a waterfall, with streams of water continuously pounding at it from the rocks above. Beautiful from a distance, but painful from inside. Other times my head feels like a blue sky, punctuated with raging grey clouds. I know that blue sky is a representation of me. I know the clouds are just temporary and I will see through them eventually.


18 September 2016

Receiving snail mail is pretty much one of my favourite things ever. Honestly, I don't think there is anything which I love more than checking the post in the morning and seeing a letter or parcel with my name on it.

I really miss the days when sending letters was a big thing. Don't get me wrong, I love social media and being a part of the internet age. But notifications don't always fill you with the same warmth that getting a hand written message does.


17 September 2016

One of my favourite pages of Matt Haig's Reasons to Stay Alive contains a list of all of the things that people say to sufferers of mental illness which they would never say to someone suffering from a physical illness. I think about it all the time and although Haig approaches the point with humour in his book, there's a really painful truth behind it. Mental illness is everywhere. It affects more young people today than it ever has. Yet, because we can't point to our ailments. Because I can't show my doctor a scar, a cut or a bruise, it's so much harder to be taken seriously. Mental illness does cause bruises. You just can't see them.


15 September 2016

I follow a ton of amazing people on Twitter. I used to use the platform predominantly for personal use, you know, tweeting about the amazing cheese toastie I had for lunch and not much else. This past year, however, I have really got in to the bloggers and writers side of Twitter. I've found some amazing blogs through it and made so many friends who are just like me, all of them who love to write on interesting and important topics.